sadness

Depression sucks. I've been so upset the past couple of days and I'm not home so there's really no one to go to. I'm so confused lately and things haven't really been working out. I'm just sad so many times a day. I feel like I need to talk to someone but I'm not sure who to go to which sucks the most. Teddy has just been pissing me off lately. Everything is about him. I thought after he apologized to me, that he would be fine. But its the opposite. He never talks to me. Yesterday I texted him 3 times and he didn't answer any of them. He called me at like 7:30 to ask if my brother knew about us. WTF. Like, oh hi how's ur day going? And then he proceeded to ignore my texts for the rest of the night. I even stayed up waiting for him to call and say goodnight. He never did. He's really been hurting me and he doesn't even realize it. I don't know what to do. Here I have no intention to hurt myself but at the same time, I feel like I have to. I can't deal with some things anymore. Anyway, I'm on the bus going back to campus. Lacrosse was so boring. I'm hungry. -emmacatherineee