sleeping and dying

As stupid as it is, I can't sleep. Last night there was a fight and stabbed bodies and all that jazz. I'm scared shitless now. I'm having horrible dreams every 5 minutes and I'm thinking up things that could happen to me. Its so ridicoulus. I really miss the people at home right now. New haven is wayyy sketchier than good old home. Where do people go when they die? What does it really feel like? Are you still living? I wish I could just know these things. To find them out, but still be able to come back to earth. I ask myself this stuff everyday. I'm extremely curious.